Day 5 - Feb 13

So I was asked if I feel like The Flower moved on yet or not…I thought it had. I asked the question today at the dock and the response I got was it has not. But not because it isn’t t ready, but because I keep on making it all come back around. Just like watching the river beat the dock because of the wind, I keep beating us both up. I keep making it all about me. I need to focus outside of myself….and I think starting with The Flower’s family and maybe, but it would all be me projecting onto them. I don’t want to contact them, and as a friend said, they have to process on their own, it is not for me to fix. I can only fix me. I was concerned maybe I was in the wrong place because the water keeps flowing toward me and not away from me. So is this a dead end spot. But it is a place where you can get caught up and linger or move over and keep flowing with the rest of the river, if you just get out of your own way. Flow like the river. “Have you moved on?” “Yes, I’m just waiting on you (to move on too).”

Annotation: That was a quick feeling I got when I asked that question, telling me I was the tether still holding us together